Nadine

One of the best decisions I ever took was to keep my cleaning lady Nadine. When my poor husband died and I had to leave the old apartment I knew I had to be clever with money for the future. But certain things are so very important. And having someone to clean up your house is one of them. For example, I like to cook sometimes but I don't like the mess afterwards. I don't like washing plates. I don't like greasy dishes. But today I roasted a chicken because I knew Nadine was coming. It was so good too. The trick to roasting a chicken is syrup. Yes! Put oil in the dish, put in the chicken upside down, then pour over oil, salt, the juice of a lemon or lime, sprinkle thyme and tarragon, put wine into the dish, and then pour syrup on top of all the chicken. My grandmother always cooked chicken like this. It turns brown and sweet and stays so juicy. Since Nadine has seen me do it, now she cooks her chicken this way too. Perhaps we will make it a national strategie. Nadine was sad today, in spite of the chicken. She is only young, maybe 28 or 29. She came to Paris to be a classical dancer but they said her legs were too fat for ballet - it's sad because she really has such a pretty face. She lives with a boyfriend who is frankly, just too much hard work. Today I wondered if this pressure helps keep her mind away from her dreams and the thoughts that instead of dancing ballet in front of applauding audiences, she cleans houses for people who only cook chicken when she is around. Lzb

Hurry

I was thinking yesterday how important it is to remember that we are all, owyousay, antholes? No something like this... I mean bad, trouble, difficile. Yes you are! Of course. Really I think we are all a little selfish. Sometimes a lot selfish (and sometimes that's the most fun anyway). So perhaps when one of your friends is being a complete huge ridiculous anthole instead of telling them that they are stupide or that they will never be in love because they are too ugly or that they don't know how to cook chicken casserole, it is better to remember that they are just a small fool, like you. There will be times when you must say these things, naturellement... and I will think about this some more... but right now it is past seven o'clock and that means the bar is open and my favourite pianist will be there. I'm not so sure he is a very good pianist but he's so handsome and has really curly hair. Why don't you come along? Lzb

Today

Today was okay. My friend prepared lunch so I remembered to eat something, well I say remembered... he put a dish of casseroled chicken next to my gin and tonic and so I ate it. My therapist will be so proud. Lzb